Healing Happens, If You Let It: Rebecca's Take on Her Fight with Lyme Disease
This is, Rebecca
A courageous, loyal, passionate, creative, and resilient young woman, determined to push back against the odds stacked against her, creating a life for herself around the idea that despite this disease being at the forefront of her day-to-day, she can live a life more than the obstacles it brings. That she can still move with the kind of softness and grace that encourages others to do the same. That encourages others to get after whatever it is they wish to do, no matter how impossible their dreams may seem.
Rebecca shows us that leaning into fear and feeling vulnerable is a good thing. That taking little adventures, sharing our story, and having our voices be heard is making a difference. That living through the good, the bad, and the ugly is oh so worth it.
This Is Her Story...
Its been a year and a half since my Lyme diagnosis. It's been a year and a half of being completely out of service, as I struggled to navigate the confusing world of finding the right treatment. Focusing so hard on the physical aspect, I realized I was neglecting my psychological health. I was so consumed with finding a "cure," that I refused to accept my current situation.
The more days that passed being sick in bed, I started to feel like less of a person because I was unable to travel, to work, and to go to school.
My mind was constantly at war with my body, getting angry at it for not functioning at its previous capacity.
Being at war with yourself is EXHAUSTING. So this past month I made a decision. I'm going to stop fighting my body. I'm going to accept my situation, and work with what I got.
As soon as I gave myself permission to be sick, a huge weight rolled off my shoulders. The pressure in my head felt a little less overwhelming. I realized giving myself permission to be sick, was also giving myself permission to heal. I've learned to tune in with my body. I rest when I need to rest, and if ever I feel locked inside a broken body, and an impossible situation, I repeat these things to myself. I am not less of a person than what I was. I am healing. I won't be staying still forever.
I just got back from my first road trip since my diagnosis, in an attempt to revive my spirit.
Yes, everything is harder than it used to be. I can feel remnants of the old me as I went hiking and exploring. It takes a hell of a lot of willpower to force one foot in front of the other. To keep going, even though my head is throbbing and my limbs feel like they weigh 1000 lbs. But at the end of the day, I survived. I reminded myself that yes, I am still a person. Although things are different now, I'm still able to find comfort in nature despite any pain and exhaustion. The old me is still in there, it just takes more digging to bring it out.
I. Am. A. Person.
Healing happens. If you let it.
Curious what Rebecca is up to these days? Just head to her Instagram, @rivahandler.
This girl is doing some pretty amazing things
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