1. (Feelings Evolved) Describe how you saw yourself before being diagnosed with Lyme, during the process, and after living with the disease for awhile (present day). Have the feelings towards yourself changed over time? If so, how?
Emily: Maybe it’s the Lyme brain fog, or just how the passage of time affects memory, but it’s hard for me to remember exactly how I saw myself before Lyme, as if the person I am now and the person I was then are different. When I was first diagnosed with Lyme, I remember it felt surreal. I was relieved to finally have a diagnosis and I felt greatly impacted, but strangely detached, by hearing that I had this hard-to-treat disease. I could see the weight that this disease had, and all the implications that came with it, but I couldn’t feel it yet. I was too focused on NOT letting Lyme become my identity that I overcompensated. While under treatment, I stayed in college as a full time student, I kept my job, and I left to spend a full year in Germany through a study abroad program. It’s hard for me to determine if my feelings towards myself changed over time, because I feel like the same person, just with different experiences that have affected how I make my choices.Read More