Posts tagged confidence
Losing Creative Confidence + Doing Your Best to get It Back: Thoughts on the Ebb and Flow of Fighting Lyme + Forgiving Yourself When Moving Forward Takes Longer than Expected

Warm yellow light streams through my window, a fresh bouquet of flowers sits beside my computer, a photo of my mother holding a young Chloe looks up at me from the corner of my desk; I'm surrounded by goodness, by uplifting reminders, by things that should give me everything that I need to take whatever today brings by storm...

But my motivation dissipates as my eyes linger on the unchecked boxes and mind fixates on the number of weeks it's been since I've been able to properly execute an idea and follow through with the pending ones. Why haven't I asked them about this, reached out to them, written about that, finished those projects, spend more time on this while focusing less on that? It's endless and draining, serving no purpose other than to take jabs at my confidence and do its best to halt all passion driven pursuits. 

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Gaining Creative Confidence with Lyme: Thoughts on how It's Changed My Life + the Incredible People I've Met Because of It

This past month or so has been something of a whirlwind, somehow managing to feel every emotion from a to z, but doing my best see it as a good thing. Yes, there are days when feeling everything can feel like too much, and it's all I can do to not crumble beneath the weight of nearly everything that comes my way. But then, then there are days where I don't feel anything at all, and there I am, begging my mind to let me take hold of something, anything, just as long as it allows for a change in emotion. In feeling. In how I view this moment right now. 

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How Opening Up To The World and Being Vulnerable Changed My Life For The Better

Back in high school, I was told, over and over, that my grammar wasn't good enough, and the structure of my words just didn't work. As I was told these things, I began to believe them to be true. I actually convinced myself that some things just weren't possible because I wasn't enough. 

Who I believed myself to be began to change when the weight shifted from 'create what you love' to 'only show the world the parts of you that are deemed worthy' by society.

Now, I am not here to rant about the way our school system is set up, but rather, to shine a little light on the parts of you that you don't believe to be enough. To create a space for those of you that struggle with confidence, anxiety, chronic illness, sense of self, vulnerability, sensitivity, and beauty. For those of you who have so much to say, but don't know how to share their creations, their resilience, and their beauty that hides beneath layers of doubt, fear, and idea that you are not enough. 

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