There usually comes a moment when I know, that that something, it’s going to be shared. Even if it’s simply a small fraction of the experience in full, it’s very much still there.Read More
It's quite late on a Wednesday night, and most certainly far past the time that I told myself I would be going to sleep, but something, most likely my gut, told me I should sit down and write this, otherwise I'm not certain any sleep would take place.
I've been a little absent, and maybe even distant from this community. You see, it was unexpected: I had a plan and was on a roll, moving what felt like seamlessly from one moment and one post to the next: adventures, stories, and sharing the inner workings of my mind? Easy! I was making it work, crossing of my to do's, and even tossing in a handful of workout sessions here and there.Read More
I can hear the rain dripping down the side of the house, splashing against the rough of the rocks just outside my office door, the one that joins me to the outside.
The gentle hum of cars and streaks of light dancing across my wooden table on the floor soothes me. I close my eyes (yes, while I type!) to try and soak it in just a little bit more. My mind is working against the grain, weaving through knots and unexpected curves, struggling to grip at the sense of clam that I am so desperately trying to usher in. It’s been difficult you see, to take the pressure off. To tell myself that it’s ok to dive into the pile of books that sits next to me on my futon - the pens and notebooks calling my name.
My hands shake...Read More
It's as if I'm going throughout my day with my eyes partially closed, thoughts directed inwards at the perpetual discontent I feel with the state of my health - why am I always looking for what's wrong with me when so much is right?
The hope of what will be, were the words told to me by a dear friend yesterday as I stared at several garbage bags full of old medicine, tinctures, PICC line supplies, powders, goops and a plethora of other treatment regimes and failed attempts at what I told myself would be the start of everything. Start of a healthy, thriving, and always "winning" life.Read More
When I close my eyes, I can see the outline of the mountains cut out of the sky with pink hues and a speckled blue. I dig my hands deeper into my pockets as the cool of the air continues to wash over me, making itself known and welcome to every part of exposed skin.Read More
Holding off. Stepping back. Looking at the opportunities in front of me at a different angle, with my eyes wide and heart full of simple moments.
Moments spent with the ones I love, in the places that encourage us all to thrive at a pace that works in harmony with where we are right now, rather than trying to catch up with the expectations that we hold over ourselves. That we carry with us with us no matter how many times we try to shoo them away.
Part of me is terrified of where I am right now. Part of me wants to drop my responsibilities and run as fast as I can in towards a stress-free, doubt-free, and pain-free place. But, the part of me that keeps digging. The part of me that remains curious, knee deep in ideas and half finished projects, that's the part of me I want to stick with.Read More