That the way I think things should be, and the way things are, are different. For example: I have Lyme, and I wish I didn't - among other things...
I continually find myself working towards goals, dreams, ideas, projects, practices, and habits that all fall under the realm of, "things I'll do when I'm better." Or rather, "things I'll actually be good at, able to accomplish, and follow through with when I'm feeling like myself again." When I'm no longer sick.
It's as if, without realizing it, I can't ever give it my all because I have already decided in the back of my mind that it's not possible. That the things I wish to do can be started, but not finished until I'm, well, healthier, stronger, braver, and more "secure" than I am now.
The thing is, there are, and will always be limitations with chronic illness, or whatever other obstacles you may be facing. Many of us have lost jobs, relationships, family members, passions, and dreams because of this disease. Which we can believe to be all the more reason to trust in ourselves that the person we are right now IS strong enough to accomplish the things they wish to accomplish.
We should always strive to be the best we can be, and yes, that includes finding a way to rid myself of this disease, but not just that, I would like to think that the tools I carry now are enough for me to continue creating, dreaming, adventuring, and making a life I can call home, right now.
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