A Place To Call Home: Five Days Of Treatment, Two Nights Solo Camping On The Coast Of California, and One Book

Hand shielding my eyes from the sun, I look out over the blue nothingness that makes up this magnificent ocean as I begin to list off the above, forgiving myself for the things I still hold onto, the decisions I've made or failed to make, and the unique and often times terrifying way this life of mine has unfolded. The result? I am truly lucky... 

Lucky to have these moments to look back on, and lucky to feel strong enough to share this moment with myself.

Lucky to be afraid of what the future holds while being wrapped in the humbleness of this one.

Lucky to be receiving treatment and answers to why I feel this way, reminding myself that the happiness and fulfillment part, that's up to me, Lyme or no Lyme. 

A Two Part Update On Endurance, Freedom, and What It Means To Have An Active + Healthy Soul

Two thousand steps represent half way. Steps so steep you can stick your hand out and touch the old wooden stair case in front of you. After a discouraging few days of doctor appointments and excessive napping, I needed this. I wanted this. Edmund Hillary (the first man to summit Everest) started with Mount Ollivier, therefor no better place for me to redeem my strength. Gazing up at 1,933 meters of elevation gain, thirteen-kilogram pack strapped tightly around my waist, to divert the weight off my shoulders, I dug up every endurance story I could remember; I think I can, I think I can.

Concealing Imperfection + More Adventures: An Update From Kourtney's Road Trip Through New Zealand

As I pull out my neglected bag of medication I feel the pang of guilt sink in my stomach. Since my arrival in Auckland I’ve done my best to ignore my Lyme at all cost. Staying absorbed in each adventure and convincing myself this was a much needed ‘break’ from it all.

Finally assessing the state of my health, I feel the anger tighten my chest. Mentally picturing myself tossing each pill, powder, and potion out the window, while begging any god to take back this curse and set me free.

I'm Not Willing To Run The Risk Of a Stagnate Life: Kourtney's Journey Through New Zealand + Beyond

‘You don’t get out of this world without getting your ticket punched’ my Nana often reminds me. A life-altering moment that will pick you up like a hurricane and drop you off miles from where you began. Inevitably, we will all get our turn at facing the darkness. Our world will be shaken, our beliefs questioned, and our hearts strengthened. After years of unknown and then the diagnosis of Lyme disease, it seemed as if I got my share of ticket punches.

There's Saying Yes To Life + There's Rain-Checking: Finding Clarity + Purpose Through The Backroads Of Bend, Oregon

Let me start by saying that as of late, the idea of adventure has sparked a lot of reflection, inwards and outwards. Resulting in many attempts to put to conscious thought, and fluent words – what it represents for me, what I often feel it should be, and the resulting pressure that creates.

In the simplest terms, it’s stepping outside of your bubble or box and experiencing an often necessary reset. Dropping into the unknown, the new 

An Unspoken Understanding: Elli and Melissa Chase Sunlight Through The Olympic Peninsula

When Melissa (@mellypeacox) came to Washington a few weeks back for her Lyme treatment, I already had a plan in mind to adventure together. We'd stock some good snacks, fill the car with blankets, string twinkly lights in the back for dreamy vibes, have a solid playlist, and just go. Find all the things and do all the things, because those days are always good days. They can make you feel alive when you need it most, especially when it's hard to remember life outside of just being sick.

The untouched wild of the Olympics and Cascades are what drew me to Seattle, and are what keep me here (despite an entire family 3,000 miles away). Despite sometimes having really hard days (and missing my mom). The pull of adventure, specifically amongst these mountains, fuel and fill my soul in the deepest way.